Words and Actions


The cooler weather is settling in and the frigid Arctic winter is just around the corner. It's a perfect time to settle in and read, which I've been doing a lot more of lately, especially in the evening hours.


What does reading do for you? For me, it does a couple of things.


First, it provides relaxation for my body. When I read, it's my sole focus. I'm not thinking about my next storyline, nor am I thinking about what I plan to do later or tomorrow. When I sit with a book, it becomes my world.


Second, it provides me with an attitude of thanksgiving. There are so many stories I've read, stories which I'm glad were not my own. By that I mean I'm glad I didn't have to live the lives of so many characters I've met through the written word. When I read about a mother who lost her child, a victim of child abuse, or a man afflicted by memories of war which prevent him from moving forward in life, I take a few moments and whisper a prayer that it is not my life, not my struggle. I also pray that God will help those people who are struggling in such areas.


That being said, lately, I've been struggling with fear of the unknown, of what the future may hold in certain aspects of my life. Though my reasons for feeling afraid are different, it reminds me of Rochelle Cassidy in Fear is Louder than Words.


She was definitely terrified of her stalker, but she was also terrorized by the thoughts going through her mind. I can attest to feeling the same way over recent weeks.


Always needing a plan B and preparing for "what if" scenarios in any life-altering situation, sometimes it's difficult to set thoughts aside and let my mind relax. Sometimes fear takes over, no matter how much I try to fight it. Rochelle was the same way; she found it hard to relax because no matter what she was doing, she knew her "boogeyman" was out there. (Read more about Rochelle's story here.)


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Budden Book Reviews ~ New Beginnings

On January 1, people make resolutions for the upcoming year - improving their lives in some way, planning a trip they've been putting off forever, finally deciding to buy their dream house, and so on. It's a new beginning and many people want to embrace something new.


I live in the Arctic. Though I, too, have ideas for what the new year may bring, it isn't until spring when I really feel as if I'm getting a new beginning. Perhaps it's because I don't feel the Arctic cold as I do in January. It could be because the days are growing longer and I'm not going to work in the dark and coming home in the dark. The dreary days of February have become a thing of the past and I look forward to April when even warmer temperatures announce themselves.


Whatever the case, right now, I feel as if I've been given a new lease on life. I'm at the top of my game, so to speak. I will be taking a trip to Winnipeg to spend time with my two grandchildren in April, whom I haven't seen for two months. It may not seem long to you but, considering they lived with me their whole lives, going two months without seeing them seems like forever. I can't wait to take them on a vacation.


This coming summer, I will also be relocating after almost 22 years. I don't know where my family and I will be moving yet, but it will be somewhere else in Arctic Canada, I presume. I say with all of the sarcasm in the world that it will be fun sorting through a lifetime of stuff, going through it to determine what's needed, what can be sold or even discarded. 


Before I even get to the new place I'll (hopefully) come to think of as home, I will be welcoming another grandchild into the world. I'm thinking it will be another boy, but time will tell. Once again, I will live with a grandchild in my home for a couple of years before I take on separation issues again as another child goes off to college.


Will I get married this year, or will it be the next? It could be next year since this year seems to be full enough with everything that's going on in our lives. When I get married, will I keep my name as Budden or add Peter's surname to mine? So many questions I never thought I'd have to think about again. We'll see what time brings. 


Change - for so many years, despite changes taking place, so many things remained the same in my world. I had the same close friends, the same job, the same home, the same kids (as if I could change them) and even did the same things to pass the time. You could say I had a routine.


The upcoming changes are a lot for a person like me to absorb, but I'm looking upon everything as a new beginning. I will be able to meet new people who may also become interested in the books I write, or the books I review. I will make new friends without losing my old friends. My two children who will be with me may be able to meet a close friend, or two, so they won't feel alone in their new world.


I will, finally, have a living room again, instead of a living-room-turned-bedroom. I'll be able to kick my feet up with a baby sleeping on my chest. I'll have an excuse to look at baby clothes again and, most importantly, I'll be able to spend more quality time with my family even as I continue to set aside time to write and review books here at Budden Book Reviews.


On January 1, I didn't foresee all of the changes that would take place in my life in the span of six months, but things happen at certain times in our lives for a reason. I'm not going to question it; I'm just going to embrace life and all of the good things it has to offer.


What about you? Are you going through a lot of change in your life? Are you embarking upon an adventure? Feel free to share your story with us.


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Happy Valentine's Day

You may, or may not, celebrate Valentine's Day, but I wanted to take a few moments to wish you a wonderful day.


I think about all of the love I feel for the various people who make up my life, and I cannot help but take a few moments to tell each of you how much I appreciate having you in my life.


First, I thank God for creating me. Looking through time before I was ever created in the flesh, He saw me in His mind. He knew what would make me happy, knew the heartbreak I would feel at certain points during my life. He witnessed my highs and devastating lows - the times I would even break His heart. Despite it all, He saw fit to place me here and give me a life I cannot help but think of as rewarding. I couldn't ask for much more.


I am thankful for loving parents who taught me right from wrong at an early age. I may not have always lived up to their standards, having fallen short of their expectations at times but, through good and bad - even pain and heartfelt sorrow - I am happy I can call them my parents.


I am thankful for the man I intend to spend the rest of my life with, Peter Lewis. He came into my life so unexpectedly, it still makes my head spin when I think about it. When it happened, I cannot say. How it happened, I haven't the foggiest idea, but he laughed his way into my heart and soul, and my life has never been the same. So much for our die-hard intentions of spending the rest of our lives alone, but we are happier as a couple than we ever dreamed we could be.


I am thankful for my kids. They've given me lots of hugs, smiles and laughter throughout the years. We've made countless memories, and I hope we'll make many more. That being said, they certainly know how to break my heart, how to render me to tears but, despite it all - despite the journeys we will embark on in the future, the different paths we take in life - I love them and will always pray for their lives to be filled with peace and contentment.


As for my grandchildren, I cannot put into words how I feel about them. I look into their eyes and wish I could protect them from life - from the pain and heartache they are sure to feel as they grow older and lose their innocence about the world around them. All I can provide is a pair of listening ears, a shoulder to cry on and a place for them to visit when they want to spend time with Grandma. Even so, that is more than some grandchildren have so, in that, I can be thankful.


I am also more than grateful for my readers, people who take the time to read the stories which have been written upon my heart. Each of your comments and reviews mean the world to me. I truly enjoy hearing from you. If you haven't come across my books yet, you can learn more about them at my website.


There are so many other people who make up my life, dear cherished friends and family members (you know who you are) and I wish you the best Valentine's Day yet.